The fuck's wrong with me.

[blαh2355]

My family wanted to go out to dinner tonight but I refused ending up us not going and everyone getting mad at me. I guess I'm supposed to feel guilty and sad but I truly think that I feel nothing. Like I have no emotion what so ever. The reason I didn't want to go wasn't to sit on the computer for the rest of the day but because I'm socially inept. At least that's what I think. Maybe I have a little bit of every disorder for social life but what do I know, I'm only almost 16. My parents think there's something wrong with my head because I spend too much time on the computer and I became a very cold person. I don't believe so. I'm actually quite compassionate and sympathize well. I feel like I have an on/off switch that either goes to rationalization (thoughts) and emotions. I'm the odd one out. I don't wanna do this to my family but it's just an impulse.

/rant

[Tiger Guy]

It's because you don't feel like doing anything else other than sitting your ass on a chair and staring at a screen. I used to/am still somewhat like that. It'll wear off eventually.

Or maybe you're just a sociopath.

[Cake Faice]

...you're socially inept with your own family?

[Astropilot]

Happens to me with people at school some times. Instead of just accepting that I have a different mind and won't be happy, I use it as a weapon and start scaring people.

[blαh2355]

It's because you don't feel like doing anything else other than sitting your ass on a chair and staring at a screen.

Not the main reason but maybe.

...you're socially inept with your own family?

Somewhat. They say I am. I don't really have anything to say other than global news or whatnot. I don't like sharing what I do.

It's weird actually, I'm fine with talking away with friends at school but probably because they wouldn't care anyways and would forget it later on.

Happens to me with people at school some times. Instead of just accepting that I have a different mind and won't be happy, I use it as a weapon and start scaring people.

lol, I can't do that to people, that would be mean (in my eyes) and my friends would be like "LOL Y U SO SAD".

[○ Μαρία ○]

That's happen to me before. It was last December, I would get offered to do things with people, but I just didn't want to, even with my own family. Though I was in a deep depression then, lack of communication with your family(or anyone for that matter) and solitude can do damage to your social attitude. I spent all of my time ont the computer, and even though it brought me peace of mind for awhile, even talking to my online friends became something I didn't want to do. Even if you may not want to, try going out with your family next time. I didn't want to socialize with anyone with that time, and found socializing awkward, but I forced myself to do it so I could get out of the slump I was in. I couldn't just allow myself to get worst, I didn't like being anti-social it took away my happiness. Anyways I hope things get better for you, I don't know if I could make any more relation. :\

[blαh2355]

That's happen to me before. It was last December, I would get offered to do things with people, but I just didn't want to, even with my own family. Though I was in a deep depression then, lack of communication with your family(or anyone for that matter) and solitude can do damage to your social attitude. I spent all of my time ont the computer, and even though it brought me peace of mind for awhile, even talking to my online friends became something I didn't want to do. Even if you may not want to, try going out with your family next time. I didn't want to socialize with anyone with that time, and found socializing awkward, but I forced myself to do it so I could get out of the slump I was in. I couldn't just allow myself to get worst, I didn't like being anti-social it took away my happiness. Anyways I hope things get better for you, I don't know if I could make any more relation. :\

Well that sucks and I give my sympathy to you (even though it's in the past) but I'm not feeling depressed or anything right now.

Also when it comes to decision making like whether I want to do this or that or go here or there, I have a hard time picking most of the time. I look at both and see the pros and cons and they both even out leaving my head in a dead logic state.

[memo3300]

i didn't went to my grandmothers funeral to stay home playing gmod.

during one summer I used to go out with the same 3 guys for 1 month, I got sick of them and over 1 month i just played gmod and only went out with them 3 times or so.


If you got friends and you occasionally go out with them it's ok.

[Cake Faice]

i didn't went to my grandmothers funeral to stay home playing gmod.

...can you retype that?

[blαh2355]

...can you retype that?

He didn't want to go to his grandmother's funeral so he could stay home and play gmod.

during one summer I used to go out with the same 3 guys for 1 month, I got sick of them and over 1 month i just played gmod and only went out with them 3 times or so.

If you got friends and you occasionally go out with them it's ok.

Well I rarely play outside with friends but I want to. It's just that they don't invite me to and I don't feel like organizing something.

[Cake Faice]

He didn't want to go to his grandmother's funeral so he could stay home and play gmod.

...unless he and his whole family dislikes his grandmother, that is kinda, if not, really stupid.

[memo3300]

...unless he and his whole family dislikes his grandmother, that is kinda, if not, really stupid.

I was 11, i didn't want to see my dead grandmother.

so i had to stay home, so i played gmod.



I mean, it's not like... i didn't went because i wanted to play gmod more than going there... it's just that i didn't wanted to go.

[Cake Faice]

I was 11, i didn't want to see my dead grandmother.

so i had to stay home, so i played gmod.



I mean, it's not like... i didn't went because i wanted to play gmod more than going there... it's just that i didn't wanted to go.

But at least not going to pay your respects to a deceased family member unless you had conflict with?

[·UηİŦ··]

Well, truth be told, we all have ways of dealing with things.

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I'm good at concealing basically everything and only ever releasing it as a means to make a joke out of the situation.

Or something.

Point is, you shouldn't be singled out as weird or odd. That's... derp. For lack of a better term to make you envision the absurdity.

They have to at least, somewhat, come to terms with that. You might have an off day, an off moment...

Maybe you have some actual reasons as to why you don't want to go/do something, but to yourfamilyetc it may be arbitrary or not make sense.

Might be realy personal, and you don't feel like going off and telling everyone about it. No one can read your mind, so it's up to you how you let people know just what it is you're thinking about. You don't always have to, either.

It'll suck if you're forced to do things as if the world will end, or you'll break some super-special tradition, but I don't think the world should make you.

Make the world instead, or just wear a really awesome mask around the people who expect you to be the idea person with 0% imperfections.

But at the same time, don't use it as an excuse to recluse from the world .-.

[Osme]

But at least not going to pay your respects to a deceased family member unless you had conflict with?

I think he means he didnt wish to see his grandmother dead... A very reasonable thing. I think?