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Title: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: blαh2355 on October 30, 2012, 05:53:18 PM
My family wanted to go out to dinner tonight but I refused ending up us not going and everyone getting mad at me. I guess I'm supposed to feel guilty and sad but I truly think that I feel nothing. Like I have no emotion what so ever. The reason I didn't want to go wasn't to sit on the computer for the rest of the day but because I'm socially inept. At least that's what I think. Maybe I have a little bit of every disorder for social life but what do I know, I'm only almost 16. My parents think there's something wrong with my head because I spend too much time on the computer and I became a very cold person. I don't believe so. I'm actually quite compassionate and sympathize well. I feel like I have an on/off switch that either goes to rationalization (thoughts) and emotions. I'm the odd one out. I don't wanna do this to my family but it's just an impulse.

/rant
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Tiger Guy on October 30, 2012, 06:01:41 PM
It's because you don't feel like doing anything else other than sitting your ass on a chair and staring at a screen. I used to/am still somewhat like that. It'll wear off eventually.

Or maybe you're just a sociopath.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Cake Faice on October 30, 2012, 06:17:37 PM
...you're socially inept with your own family?
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Astropilot on October 30, 2012, 06:19:21 PM
Happens to me with people at school some times. Instead of just accepting that I have a different mind and won't be happy, I use it as a weapon and start scaring people.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: blαh2355 on October 30, 2012, 06:24:26 PM
It's because you don't feel like doing anything else other than sitting your ass on a chair and staring at a screen.
Not the main reason but maybe.

...you're socially inept with your own family?
Somewhat. They say I am. I don't really have anything to say other than global news or whatnot. I don't like sharing what I do.

It's weird actually, I'm fine with talking away with friends at school but probably because they wouldn't care anyways and would forget it later on.

Happens to me with people at school some times. Instead of just accepting that I have a different mind and won't be happy, I use it as a weapon and start scaring people.
lol, I can't do that to people, that would be mean (in my eyes) and my friends would be like "LOL Y U SO SAD".
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: ○ Μαρία ○ on October 30, 2012, 06:29:49 PM
That's happen to me before. It was last December, I would get offered to do things with people, but I just didn't want to, even with my own family. Though I was in a deep depression then, lack of communication with your family(or anyone for that matter) and solitude can do damage to your social attitude. I spent all of my time ont the computer, and even though it brought me peace of mind for awhile, even talking to my online friends became something I didn't want to do. Even if you may not want to, try going out with your family next time. I didn't want to socialize with anyone with that time, and found socializing awkward, but I forced myself to do it so I could get out of the slump I was in. I couldn't just allow myself to get worst, I didn't like being anti-social it took away my happiness. Anyways I hope things get better for you, I don't know if I could make any more relation. :\
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: blαh2355 on October 30, 2012, 07:00:32 PM
That's happen to me before. It was last December, I would get offered to do things with people, but I just didn't want to, even with my own family. Though I was in a deep depression then, lack of communication with your family(or anyone for that matter) and solitude can do damage to your social attitude. I spent all of my time ont the computer, and even though it brought me peace of mind for awhile, even talking to my online friends became something I didn't want to do. Even if you may not want to, try going out with your family next time. I didn't want to socialize with anyone with that time, and found socializing awkward, but I forced myself to do it so I could get out of the slump I was in. I couldn't just allow myself to get worst, I didn't like being anti-social it took away my happiness. Anyways I hope things get better for you, I don't know if I could make any more relation. :\
Well that sucks and I give my sympathy to you (even though it's in the past) but I'm not feeling depressed or anything right now.

Also when it comes to decision making like whether I want to do this or that or go here or there, I have a hard time picking most of the time. I look at both and see the pros and cons and they both even out leaving my head in a dead logic state.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: memo3300 on October 31, 2012, 02:09:30 PM
i didn't went to my grandmothers funeral to stay home playing gmod.

during one summer I used to go out with the same 3 guys for 1 month, I got sick of them and over 1 month i just played gmod and only went out with them 3 times or so.


If you got friends and you occasionally go out with them it's ok.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Cake Faice on October 31, 2012, 02:16:58 PM
i didn't went to my grandmothers funeral to stay home playing gmod.
...can you retype that?
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: blαh2355 on October 31, 2012, 02:48:01 PM
...can you retype that?
He didn't want to go to his grandmother's funeral so he could stay home and play gmod.

during one summer I used to go out with the same 3 guys for 1 month, I got sick of them and over 1 month i just played gmod and only went out with them 3 times or so.

If you got friends and you occasionally go out with them it's ok.
Well I rarely play outside with friends but I want to. It's just that they don't invite me to and I don't feel like organizing something.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Cake Faice on October 31, 2012, 03:44:26 PM
He didn't want to go to his grandmother's funeral so he could stay home and play gmod.
...unless he and his whole family dislikes his grandmother, that is kinda, if not, really stupid.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: memo3300 on October 31, 2012, 08:58:57 PM
...unless he and his whole family dislikes his grandmother, that is kinda, if not, really stupid.


I was 11, i didn't want to see my dead grandmother.

so i had to stay home, so i played gmod.



I mean, it's not like... i didn't went because i wanted to play gmod more than going there... it's just that i didn't wanted to go.


Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Cake Faice on October 31, 2012, 09:38:24 PM

I was 11, i didn't want to see my dead grandmother.

so i had to stay home, so i played gmod.



I mean, it's not like... i didn't went because i wanted to play gmod more than going there... it's just that i didn't wanted to go.
But at least not going to pay your respects to a deceased family member unless you had conflict with?
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: ·UηİŦ·· on November 01, 2012, 05:40:31 AM
Well, truth be told, we all have ways of dealing with things.

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Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Osme on November 01, 2012, 06:46:44 AM
But at least not going to pay your respects to a deceased family member unless you had conflict with?

I think he means he didnt wish to see his grandmother dead... A very reasonable thing. I think?
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: memo3300 on November 01, 2012, 10:26:32 AM
But at least not going to pay your respects to a deceased family member unless you had conflict with?

I got to say goodbye when she was alive, I don't see why to do it when she was dead.

literally like 4-5 days before she died I got the chance to go where she was and for the first time in a year or so I saw she smiling, she did because her nurse or my uncle or someone asked her if she was happy to be with her grandsons, she moved her head down and up a little and smiled.

With the years she lost the ability to talk... that kinda made it impossible to get too close  to her... and for a year or two my father made me go to her house saying "it can be the last time you see her"

She was suffering and once or twice i got to listen her say "no more" before the day she died.


--

is it that bad in your eyes? because for me it isn't .-.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: TehHank on November 01, 2012, 12:08:18 PM
I got to say goodbye when she was alive, I don't see why to do it when she was dead.

literally like 4-5 days before she died I got the chance to go where she was and for the first time in a year or so I saw she smiling, she did because her nurse or my uncle or someone asked her if she was happy to be with her grandsons, she moved her head down and up a little and smiled.

With the years she lost the ability to talk... that kinda made it impossible to get too close  to her... and for a year or two my father made me go to her house saying "it can be the last time you see her"

She was suffering and once or twice i got to listen her say "no more" before the day she died.


--

is it that bad in your eyes? because for me it isn't .-.
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Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: Cake Faice on November 01, 2012, 02:17:42 PM
is it that bad in your eyes? because for me it isn't .-.
If you would have said that before, then not really at all. But from the way you implied it, its as if you prioritized Gmod over more important things.
Title: Re: The fuck's wrong with me.
Post by: memo3300 on November 01, 2012, 04:09:48 PM
If you would have said that before, then not really at all. But from the way you implied it, its as if you prioritized Gmod over more important things.

yeah i figured it out when i saw again my post