Fuck tl;dr unless nothing happens, then tl;dr
But, and I'll be as clear and as honest as I physically am able to be so be it that to my luck that this is really just what it claims to be , and say that;
Many, Many times I always thought or heard that the world was going to end. Even when I was a baby. Even now. Even before my time.
Look at all the disasters that happened within the decade, though. Have you seen any other time period (excluding Dinos, Ice age etc) with so many disasters in only 11 years? Especially because of us. Most of those were man-made, or influenced by us entirely. But are we ALL dead yet?
No...
See: Oil spill, Slave Lake Fire, Japan, and I hate to mention that fateful day almost 10 years ago. And the list goes on.
The Natural Disaters, however, are either a random-ass sign (I don't care whatever) to the eventful 2012, if that even happens.
I'll be honest; if today is the end of days, I will be a happy man- no, a happy soul. No more Trudging about with my grubby little hands in a hellhole Rat-race full of Crazy people, Idiots who follow the crazy people, and the select few who really know what's going on, and don't care to include themselves/don't have a big enough voice/can't reach people.
I'd rather just stand there, and let the flood.... the waves... just hit me. Drown out all my sound. Nullify my sense of Spatial awareness. Pull me from my feet. Dissipate my sight, and suck my breath away from me.
End.
Maybe Quantum Suicide will enable me a better view on reality as I would then perceive it. Maybe I will cease to exist. Maybe I will go to heaven. I could have my own hand, my own undeniable, unrestricted raw freedom. Maybe, not at all. Maybe I will make haste and suffer for whatever it is I did. Who knows. We certainly won't know enough, because Dead Men Tell No Stories.
Except those Dead Men who wrote stories before they died. But that's not the point.
I don't know why. But if and when I see that wave. That Flood of water coming at me. I will smile.
And I could just, fade away. Like an Eroding rock on the shore.
Like a mound of sand being blown away in the Desert.
Like fire to water.
Like a dying star.
Yeah I think I died a bit inside earlier. Boring shit no one cares about anyways.
Oh and one other thing;
Did you ever, ever, just once, imagine being the last man alive? The last man/woman/I don't judge?
Quite a title.
Imagine.
The human race.
13,023 years (Thank you Bipolar, tbh I was actually thinking how long we've really existed in Math today... Math. What).
13,023 years of Countless Trial and Error.
Trial and Error. Senseless Violence. Genius Dreams. Pure Estacy. Loved and lived. Did and Died. Did not and Died not. Sharing knowledge. Freedom acts. Tools. Technology. Wars.
Things that didn't even make sense to basic human nature, a freak accident maybe even, a paradoxical race that builds yet destroys... Learns yet Forgets, Innovative yet Ignorant, Peaceful... yet...
And you are the last soul left to witness that fateful day.
"And then there was one."
And you would be that one. No one else. Stands. At all. Just, you... Run in the Streets. Play with lights for 5 hours. Run around in a library. Fap, even, I figure I'd mention it for once.
Who the hell cares? Last man on the planet, only the ghosties and God even would pay any attention, if any.
But aside from the materialism, the fact that all this shit went down just for you to stare dumbstruck at the horizon of countless dead on the blue marble covered with dead ants is really just... shocking yet relieving. As if, no one is breathing down your back.
Single Player.
^I'm reading it all over. Silly shit. But it's something I just want to put out there. I can't make it perfect. I'm not Jesus. I'm not God.
Just a mindless rant fueled by some emotion IDGAF to figure out.
It's 12:50am and I'm cynical, Bitchy Mcbitchbitchfuck, and depressed all in one, so tired that I'm lead to believe I just need to lie on the beach at 6pm and let the water whatever. Maybe a little bit of Dark humor from a Cosmic POV but, yeah.
Basically. If not I'll just be all like "FFAWWWWKKKKKKK |:<" For a good 2 weeks then cheer up again.
Maybe.
