u wot m8
>i'm depressed my girlfriend was raped i'm losing contact with her i feel worthless
>LOL BURN XDXD
if you think that is somehow funny you need to leave
now
Complete and utter reading comprehension fail.
I got nothing to say Dreary, since I've gone through none of the things you have. Do what you need to do, but know that this isn't the end of your world.
I'm sure there are countless people out there right now who have experienced what you're going through, and have managed to keep on living their lives and strive for something more. It must hurt right now, but hurt doesn't last forever. Just don't dwell too much on "could've" and "should've", which can be self-destructive. People may say not to dwell on the past, but it's also wrong to forget it. Never forget the past, but live and learn from it, and I hope you move on somehow, at some time.