You are following a path that has not lead to success but which you believe will eventually prevail. Frustration has expressed itself as anxiety even though you are still confident that your path forward is the right one. Often you will have unrealistic goals in life or for a relationship. You are stubborn in the face of adversity, which can be both positive and negative.
You often create your own problems through a compulsion for perfection and individuality. A romantic relationship is often met with a critical discernment and a demanding attitude that can tend to create stress and trauma. Consequently, you will often become involved in a relationship that veers constantly from one extreme to another. Social approval is very important to you and yet you pride yourself in your aesthetic judgement. You will always be seeking for ways to prove your superiority or worth.
I do somewhat desire an unrealistic relationship/goals in life... probably because most goals in life today are SWAG SWAG SWAG
FUK ME SILLY.individuality yes
I'm not too difficult on people, though. But I demand they stop wearing swagger... or trying to attempt-to-flirt with me as publicly as possible if even if they even joking about even.
I don't want to know what they're doing, I'm fairly sure they don't want to know what I'm doing unless they've got the weirdest boner right now listening to two strangers talk about how coot dey aer.
But I don't want/create relationships I know won't -really- work instead of face value hi's and goodbyes. Gotta make that connection, can't just waste your life doing something you don't enjoy.
Dem feels. Even if it's every other 7 months.
social approval is not important for me but I do actually desire a relationship 'pertaining to, involving, or concerned with pure emotion and sensation as opposed to pure intellectuality. '
but i find it appealing that someone knows what aesthetic means
You can fucking be wearing a giant barrel and shave off your hair, or anything else absurd, as long as that's you. Not one person can tell me/make me care about what I can or can't do unless it involves a Murder-Death-Kill.
But I don't desire to idolize myself. That's also wrong. Fuck that, I'm content with me being the only person who knows my name or goes out with a barrel-wearing bald person.