I would like to be under the age of 10 again. It was such a nice period of my life, but unfortunately all I think about is how I am getting older, and the older I get the closer I get to my death. I am not really afraid of my own death, as much as I am of the death of people around me, life is so short lived. I want to be in that stage of my life again because I never thought about these types of things, I was just happy and content with life, but now all that pollutes my mind is "another day until my parents die... or another day until my friends/siblings/grandma die." It's a really shitty mind-set. I had this period of time when I had found my old baby videos, and I was so despaired because there were people in those videos who had died already, and now more people will die later in my life. Now we're moving out of my childhood home....
So I sort of relate. It's harder though, thinking about being a small child again, because it will never happen. I try not grieve over it.
